Monthly Archives: April 2013

I cannot believe it is Monday……where does the days go. I woke this morning, feeling my usual self……my head is about to explode and my sugar is so high…..it is killing me……usually worrying about lows….now my sugar is in the high 400’s…..on the path to having stroke….just give me a break.

I carefully did my workout….which did not help my head much……..not feeling good at all…….and it is crappy outside. It is a good day to stay in bed…..and that is not going to happy.

I feel bad for Dan. He is not having a great day…….He has worked so hard to recruiting someone to come to the company/ all the paperwork was signed and ready to go…..announcement made and then they decided to stay where they are…..just a major disappointment to Dan. I just feel so bad for him…..he is bummed…..and I cannot do anything to make things better.

I woke this morning just feeling so down. I wish I could feel good for one day……I am so tired of feeling sick and pain. I try so hard to have a positive attitude how I feel…..but some days is harder than others. Hopefully, pilates class will help and put me in a better place. I just seem to feel better when I workout….It is the only thing I can have control of, since I am trapped in my miserable world (my situation).

I took the class….got a good workout……but I am still in the same frame of mind….which really sucks!!!!!

Went home, made dinner for Dan and I, it was a little later than usual to eat due to pilates class. I cleaned up and made the meals for the next day….my usual routine. Just very tired and looking forward to going to bed. Watched some TV and fell asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.

Woke today to Sun and a slight chill……but suppose to get warmer, into the 70″s,…..This makes me a happy camper. Now if I got rid of this terrible head and belly ache I would be even happier…..I know this is being very wishful. Made Dan his breakfast which consisted of 2 eggs and bacon….so he was very happy. He went off to work and I continued to clean-up and get my work-out in, showered and waited for Dan to pick me up. Today is secretary day…or correction…administrative day; so Dan is taking Ellie to Lunch, we are going to Mezza Luna in Allendale, her favorite favorite place.

We went to Mezza Luna for Lunch…..it was very busy. We had a great time….she was so happy. Ellie is agreat person, a good friend…..and a tremendous help in making the transition to Sothesby’s so smooth. After lunch we went for dessert at Dairy Queen…….I will need to starve myself for the next three days…….I am so full…feeling very fat right now…..Thank god for pilates class tomorrow. Dinner is going to be very light for me….if any.

Dan has a big environmental meeting tonite so I am on my own. I am going to color my hair…..workout (double workout to burn off what I ate)….make the meals for tomorrow…clean up after making dinner for Dan (not in this order)….and hopefully have time to sit and watch American Idol and relax like a normal individual…..yeah right, that is wishful thinking.

Woke this morning with a terrible stomach ache……but I would not dare say a word…….so I just did want was expected of me…..showered , made breakfast, got dressed and jumped in the car……heading south to Dan’s parents and then to AC….to celebrate the 88th. Just praying everything goes well,…..I can see the stress written all over Dan’s face, he just wanted to make sure his Mother had a great Birthday.

We got there, had our lunch and Dan went thru his mom’s to do list…..Dan accomplished everything and we got ready to head to AC. The good thing, his mother decided to use her walker instead of her cane……this was a good thing…..so she would be able to get around much better and she would be more stable on her feet. To my surprise, the day went very well…..Mom was in good spirits, I got her a drink or two…(I had 2 myself which helped me)….we gambled for a couple hours (of course I did not win anything)….then it was time for dinner. We had a nice dinner….Mom got her crab cakes, dad had ribs and a beer (ate everything on his plate), and Dan and I had this great Cobb salad with Chicken. We walked back to get the car to go home….it was a little slow getting there…..You could tell they were tired…it was a long day for them……But it was a nice time and Mom was so happy……mission accomplished. We headed home to Dan’s parents to have Birthday cake…….Had cake, sat around for little bit……help put some pieces in their puzzle and then got ready for the long ride home….it was late and I could not wait to get home……by this time I wanted to cry from pain….my stomach was absolutely killing me……Kill me now!!!!I just wanted to die! Got home and just changed for bed……watched some TV and was ZZZZZing in no time. I was happy that all Dan’s planning and efforts to make his mother’s birthday was successful…..so all was good.

I had to get up early…..Dan had a breakfast/Meeting with Corey Booker and other Political figures (took Michael Oppler as his guess) to Serafina in Wyckoff. While he was gone I got a head start on my weekend chores, did 3 loads odf laundry and put them away….worked out and showered and got ready…..so when Dan came home from his event I would be ready to roll. Made lunch for us, cleaned up and put the remaining buckets of clothes in the truck to be brought back to storage. Ran some errands with Dan, we came back and had an early dinner. I cleaned up and we were off to the movies……at the Palisades Mall. We saw BEHIND THE PINE SOMETHING….Bradley Cooper and Ray Lotta were in it …..It was a very good movie….not what you would expect……thought it very good.
Came home watch some TV, cuddled in bed with my best friend…..And yes, I lost the bet, because of course I fell asleep with the TV on……..was so tired.

I got up Sunday morning and made breakfast, cleaned up, worked out and completed my chores by 10:30…..I was on roll. Dan and I went shopping to get his Mom a gift for her 88th Birthday….made her a cake……Managed to squeeze in a hair cut (a trim)…..make the meals for Monday’s journey south to his parent’s house…..and by the time got done it was time to make dinner, clean up and get ready for bed…….All this running, feeling as sick as a dog….My life is pretty pathetic……Yes, I am a glorified maid and cook, who does not get paid or given any value….I sometimes hate my life…….god forbid I say anything, but what is expected……I love my life!!!!!
Yeah……bullshit!

Wow, I cannot believe it is Wednesday already…..the days seem to be flying.

Woke to feeling my shitty self……..but the good thing is, it is Sunny and warm out…..This helps my mood some what. I got a work-out in, before getting ready to go to the office.

Dan came to pick me up……he surprised me (always trying to make me happy) he drove by two local nail salons……so I could get their cards and pricing. This made me happy….so now when he drops me off to get my nails done; he does not need to wait….He can go back to the office and work while he waits for me to get done. Which makes me happy…..I do not feel so guilty.

I made an appointment for mani/pedi……..I think I have a new home…..was very happy with the results. I have new place.
Dan finished up at the office and then we went home……made dinner, cleaned up, and once again made the meals for the next day……my usual routine. I watched American Idol with Dan…….I hope Amber and Candice keep going to the finals…….Such talented girls.

It is absolutely a terrible day and nothing good to say…….I feel like shit, I have a real slamming headache and a whopping belly ache. I am taking my advise…..”If you do not have something good to say…..do not say anything at all.” So this will be a short entry!!!

Today was Dan’s first office meeting in the new office……He had bagels and fruit and a birthday cake for Linda in the office. Dan had a great turn out of agents, he ran a great meeting very informative (Would not expect anything else of him). I was so proud of him……Then, I went with Dan on caravan to see some houses and then came back to the office……I was dying and just wanted to go home.

Dan felt bad for me, so He decided to take me for dinner……Greek food, it was a nice surprise……We both had Greek salads with grilled chicken…very good. Came home and made lunch for next day…..tried to stay awake to watch some TV….but was not successful…went to bed early…..was asleep in a matter of minutes.

Well, yes it is a miserable start to the week………I woke with the worse heache and stomach ache that I just want to cry. My hair actually hurts , it hurts to breath and speak. When I woke this morning, my hair looked like ringlets of curls, and wearing clothes that do not remember putting them on. I knew this was not a good thing…..and I was going to hear / and feel bad about what I did.
Dan told me the events that took place from 5:00 last nite on…….I had a very bad sugar low……I had problems breathing, speaking and drinking….I was sweating/soaking wet…..this went on from 5:00 til way after 12:00………yeap!
Need less to say……Dan was not happy with me or the whole situation……All I could say was I was sorry…….which I know Dan is tired of hearing……I know he hates me……and that I am a big burden….I do not mean to be…..I hate being me……..It sucks and wish things were different and I could just be normal….I hate me most of all.
I cleaned up the mess I made from the nite before…….and just proceeded to clean the wood floors and Kitchen floors from the Snapple that I spilled in my attempts to drink it; I got a short workout in……a shitty one…at least it was something …….I got dressed to go with Dan to office. I am here now and do not feel any better…..I wish I could crawl under a rock and die…….I really wish I was dead…..and I would not have to do this anymore…..It would be so much easier.
After leaving the office tonite, We have to go food shopping and then I have to make dinner and the meals for tomorrow…….I hope I can make it to end of the day,,,,,,really feeling so sick.

This weekend was a busy one. Dan and I got a lot accomplished.

Saturday –
Got up early to get a jump on things…..I made breakfast…a nice one at that (eggs and sauge…..Dan’s favorite). Cleaned up and started on my weekend chores while Dan ran to the office. I got ready to go with Dan on a listing appointment and made lunch before going on the appointment. After we finished the appointment we went to the office to check on things…..bad move. There was a leak under the sink….water all over, Dan had to clean it up and get a plumber to fix the broken pipe. We managed to bring my fur coat to the furrier, it was a nice day outside….especially for a ride there. From the Furrier we went to the Palisades Mall to look for new eyeglass frames for Dan…..we found a nice pair for Dan….they look real cool and different. We decided to wait for them to be made, we walked around, had dinner at the food court and decided to catch a movie to kill more time. We saw the movie GI-JOE REVENGE with Bruce Willis and the Rock…..it was okay….definitely not my favorite…..good eye candy for me was about it…….But Dan enjoyed it, and we had a nice evening.

Sunday – got up and it was sunny and warmer than the past view days……finished up the weekend chores, changing sheets,making beds, and folded all the laundry I did earlier. Had lunch and then went to meet with our past clients daughter…..in Society Hill, we gave her a price opinion. After that we decided to visit Aurora, since we were in the neighborhood. We sat outside and talked with her, enjoying the nice weather and then we decided to take her to the new office,,,,,and show her around….since she had not seen it….we basically kidnapped her (she was so worried the way she was dressed-because she was in sweats……she so funny)…..she loved the office, she thought Dan did a wonderful job.
After we returned her home we took 3 buckets back to storage…….Just have one bucket left to change over and put away…..and I am done…..this has to be a record.

After coming back from storage, it was already time to make dinner. And that is all I remember……….which was around 5:00. I do not know what happen from then on.