Monthly Archives: March 2013

All I can say is “THANK GOD IT IS FRIDAY”!!!!!!
Woke this morning just feeling so shitty – I do not know which feels worse my head or my stomach. I would just love to stay in bed and sleep all day……but that is not going to happen. I hoped that I would feel, more energenic after last nights pilates class…..with the ladies from the office…..it was a great class and so nice to do something for me and to be around women in a friendly and social atmosphere ( by myself…..nothing personal against Dan – he is truely my best friend and I love him to death….but it is nice to feel human sometimes)…..the class was great and I cannot wait for the next one.
I also got to drive to the office today…..which is another major step of being like a normal human being…….Ellie (the office admin had off) and the contractor had not gotten to the office yet…..so Dan could not leave to pick me up…..yessss….I got lucky and was able to drive.

The office is real quite today….not many agents in….since it is Good Friday. Which is a good thing……Dan is able to get the remaining items done on the office…..repairs to back stairs and the front bricks……then all that is left is the restoning of the parking lot…….almost there…….the office has close early…..so I am closer leaving.

I cannot wait to go home…..I am going to make a salmon dinner and try to just relax and get rid of this head and stomach ache…….it is just pissing me off. I would just like to feel good……If you are listning upstairs……please give me a break. I can only hope tomorrow is better.

I just do not get it……Why do people have the need to say what ever they feel like……What ever happened to that saying….If you do not have anything nice to say…..Don’t say anything. God, people just are so rude, and just really inconsiderate. It would be nice if people just thought before they open their mouth…….Really???????

It is Passover……and the office is officially closed, so Dan and I are going to see his Parents. It has been a couple of weeks since we have been there last……due to moving the office. I know Dan is excited to see them, he feels bad he has not been able to get there more often…..but now that the move is done; I know it will definitel be more frequent…….just so much up keep to be done.

Of course, there was things to be done……the list…..which meant repairs to the house and a trip to Home Depot and Walmart. Got everything done…..which made Dan happy…….It is just a shame that Dan always seems so stressed when he goes there……all the tension; he tries so hard but it always seems to be drama…….he never does enough…….it makes me so sad. It is hard to see…..your parents get old and slowly detiorate…….not knowing how much time they have……life just sucks sometimes.

On the way home, after a long day….we stopped at the supermarket, picked up some stuff………and finally made it home. I am so glad to be home…..nothing is worse than …..as feeling sick and having to be somewhere (should be use to it…..correction, you never get use to it),,,,,ahh just nice to be home.

Still not able to rest……..have to make meals for tomorrow…..clean up…..and then I will be able to sit down and relax……..I should say, just go to bed. Hopefully, I will feel a little better tomorrow……it really sucks having sugar lows (makes me feel so scattered in my thoughts…….not to mention the this constant pain in my stomach……was absolutely horrible today,,,,,,,,But I have to keep smiling and being pleasant and all I really just want to do is SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!)

Yes, we are finally in the new office and up for business. Most of all the agents are completely moved in and setting up there desk. It has been a rough and stressful month for Dan…….making this move……He did a wonderful job. The office looks great, and Dan made the move for the agents…..so easy. All they had to do was move their stuff. Everything was organized…….I cannot say how proud I am of him, “Just a great job….but then again I would not expect anything less of him”.

Hopefully, now Dan can relax a little……or have a little less stress, because although he always seems as cool as a cucumber, but he stresses about things internally……..and getting to this point was alot on him. I now look forward to having the old Dan back…….not the stressed twin. I just hope the people in the office appreciate and realize how much heart Dan put into the office and making everyone happy…….and that they keep it nice.

The past couple days have been miserable. It all started on Thursday evening when I had a bad seizure from 12:00mto 2:00am. Dan is believes that it was the result of stress and going to bed very upset. Apparently I was very upset, and was uncontrollable……whereupon I kicked Dan in the middle of the stomach, right in the sternum, which he had injured previously before……which caused Dan to get sick immediately……from 2:00 to 6:00 Dan was dieing in pain……I of course was not aware of what I did till 6:00……..I felt terrible what happen and what I did. The two of us were in terrible shape……Dan could not move from the stomach pain (he had a terrible headache due to fever – I think he had a touch of the bug also, but he insisted it was because of the kick…..which just made me feel worse; and I was just dragging from the seizure), the only good thing was the snow storm, helped with the office being delayed in opening and not much was happening…..THANK GOD!!!!!
The next couple of days were miserable……both of us just dragged…..trying to make each other feel better…..we did things at new office, etc…..but everything was done in slow motion and was a major effort. Then on Saturday…..the so call bug I said Dan had….decided to pay me a visit in the middle of the night. It struck like a ton of bricks…….I spent the whole night tossing my cookies…..I was literally crying…..which as a result made me dehydrated and totally screwed up my sugars….they were off the charts high nothing less of 450 and up (stroke zone), I just wanted to kill myself, literally. My sugars have been so off since, my stomach is so soar from tossing and my head is ready to explode……so bad that I came home and went straight to bed and never moved (which is unusual for me – I always try not to give in).
Today, I just feel a little better…..but I am still dragging. I hate feeling sicker than usual….I just want a break. I have to be in tip top shape for the next couple of weeks……I have to be there to help Dan with the move…..which is going to start on Thursday this week……the furniture is being delivered and the stress begins………After all this ……I think Dan needs a vacation…….he definitely deserves it!!!!!!!!

I just have to say how impressed and proud I am of my husband. I have spent part of this past weekend and the last couple of days helping Dan get the new office ready. It amazes me how much he has gotten all done in such a short time and has managed to be on top and conduct everyday business (dealing with the daily problems and issues in the offices). Today he was told the furniture should be here next Wednesday – then 2 days to set up computers and phones…..move over file cabinets…etc., he is just bursting at the seams to get in and get business running. He has done an amazing job….from the paint colors, to the work done in the office (contractors, gc the job, decorating, cleanning,….etc). I just cannot express how proud I am of him……I am his biggest fan. I know everyone will love the whole presentation……the place looks great…..I am so excited to get in and Dan getting back to doing what he does best and loves to do, and he will not be stressed. Just a little longer.

Yes, it is a miserable Monday…….my thinking of going to bed earlier last night and getting a good nites sleep…..did not help my head and stomach. I feel as shitty, if not worse than yesterday. So, trying not to give into my feelings, I decided to do normal exercise routine and vacum the house before Dan came to pick me up.
At least I got something accomplished. I just want the day to end…….can not wait to go home and vegetate after dinner……..my bed is calling me. I am hoping tomorrow is a better day and I feel better, I would even take a little better. I am so sick of feeling like shit……it truly sucks…….I hate that the sun is shining and it doen’t help.