Woke this morning, feeling very disoriented, checked sugar and it was lower than usual for the mornings. I just feel odd, it is weird. Did not take any insulin and had breakfast. By time for lunch – I seemed to feel worse, checked sugar again and I was a 38…..good thing I checked. Took some glucose shots (3) to be exact and had lunch. This of course sent my sugar to like 450 (okay now I am ready for a stroke) and my head is absolutely ready to fall off. I feel so sick to my stomach and every muscle and nerve in body hurts. I do not get what is going on, my vision is so blurry too – just not feeling right. I am trying to stay quite and not talk much,,,,,,my head pounds with every move I make or word I speak. Don’t want to tell Dan, because he will start to worry and will be asking/checking on me every minute……and this will only make me more irritable and I do not want to fight with him…….It is not his fault and there is nothing he can do for me….hopefully this will pass .
I just feel like a big waste product. There is so much I want to do, I hate when I feel terrible. I feel like a prisioner in my body and just want to escape and jump out of my skin – I am hating my life and I am sick of always feeling shitty. This sucks!!!!! I guess I am feeling sorry for myself and venting; I know I should be grateful and there are others that have it worse – I guess I should just be happy. It is just not easy to except and I do not like it!!!!!!
Oh God that really hurt……my head just fell off and is rolling down the stairs as I just sneezed – please somebody just shoot me!!