It all started last night while having dinner with Dan’s sister and family. We got our niece her tatoo – came out real pretty, she was so happy and loved it. Went to the dinner afterwards, to celebrate Daniels birthday – and Bang I started to have a bad sugar low -although we caught it, all the way home I felt sick and shaky, and that was how I went to bed – feeling like I had the shit kicked out me.
Woke this morning feeling like crap, but I must have done something in my sleep – or may slept on my pump……the pain in my right groin and hip……..it is so bad. I tried to forget about it and do my stuff that needed to be done.- but it kills to walk, sit or move….and then before lunch I had another real bad low…..of course it is my fault and Dan was not happy. Like I want to feel like shit and out of it.(out of my mind- not remembering)…okay – it is my fault. Finally got it undercontrol, went to mall with Dan to pick something up and the next thing I know, I find myself sitting at a table with Dan in front of me saying, do you feel better, keep drinking and eating this……another real bad low – Dan said my sugar was down to 30 again. Don’t remember how I got there, all I know is the pain in my groin felt like it magnified about a 100 time. I just wanted to cry and still do now that I am home……between that pain and the pain head/stomach – I truly wish someone would just put me out of my misery…….this truly sucks. I just want the day to be over, and hopefully tomorrow is better. I am so fearful for what is to come, will I have another problem (not that I will know) and I will be a burden to Dan tonite while he tries to sleep. I just don’t get it………IT REALLY SUCKS BIG TIME AND I AM SO DONE!!!!!!