Monthly Archives: May 2011

Now that was a joke – major false alarm , the world is still around and nothing has changed…….yes I am still in hell.   Oops!   I am not suppose to say that, I am suppose to be positive…..sorry about that. 

I am starting to get use to the pump and having it hang from my side.  Just wish the sugar lows would lessen or stop…..but I guess I can not complain for I have not had any major seizures, which is good.

Went to see the girls Saturday – went to our favorite cafe and had dinner……It was nice to see them, the little boys (the puppies) and have conversation and catch up.  At least if the  world was going to end …..we would be together.  

Woke this morning with a slamming headache……hurts so bad my neck and back are killing me everytime I move.  I must have slept wrong.  It is still rainy out……this weather is just crazy.  Hopefully, it rains all it wants now and is nice for Memorial Day weekend.   

 Did an Open House with Dan today – had a great turn out – that is one good thing about bad weather – people are not doing yard work.  Came home and made dinner, ate, going to work out before watching the finale of the Apprentice.    It seems like the days are just flying by…especially when they seem so much shorter (when I have sugar lows and lose periods of time). 

Oh well, it looks like I have plenty of time ….to do things, since the world is still around.  Something to look forward to…Happy, Happy, must think POSITIVE.   Gotta go work out before my show comes on …talk to you tomorrow.

Well the good news is (trying to be positive / still working on it) is that I have not had any major seizures.  Lots of sugar lows, but they have been detectable and I have managed to prevent from being a full blown seizure…..now if I could control the memory loss and disorientation (one thing at a time – right).

Now for the bad news……I have to send the pump back….Major malfunction- so the company is sending me out a new pump (which is a good thing) the bad thing is now I have to  reprogram it all over again.  It is always something……but I am happy to get a totally new pump.  without any charge – due to the fact it is still under warranty…..Thank god for that…..there is a god..

Okay,  no problems during the night – that was a good thing.  I managed to sleep most of the night, only got up twice and I only had a bad stomach ache  when I got up, not both stomach and headache.  I managed to get all my weekend chores, as well as cleaning the house and working out done  by noon.  I am proud of myself. 

Dan and I met our client at the office to finish up on a rental, made copies of flyers for tomorrow’s open house and then headed home.  Worked on the computer and folded laundry, and started to make dinner.  And from there on , I could not tell ya anymore……..I know I made dinner and it was good according to Dan (at least I know I make good dinners even if I don’t remember making them) and I also spoke to my sister- Have no clue about what – I know I spoke to her because Dan asked me what she wanted….I don’t remember the conversation, nor cleaning up the whole kitchen after we were done eating.)  It happened again……all I know is I wish I could rip my head off my shoulders, I  a slamming headache, my stomach is so upset, and my brain/thoughts are scrabbled.  I feel like SHIT…….This just really sucks.  I had a positive attitude today – this is what I get, having no clue and scrabbled eggs for brains.  I just want to go to bed…..but I am going to try to stay up and watch a movie with Dan, I don’t want him to sit by himself on a Saturday night…..God knows, I was lost for a couple of hours before and he was alone.  I don’t know how much more I can take, I feel like I am loosing total control , and I really hate it.

Woke this morning, feeling the same, but today a little different.      I was starting my new, positive attitude.  It seemed to be going well, did floor time with Dan,  ran errands with him, (went to Ramsey Market – Fresh Vegetable Market ) got all fresh vegetables, tofu, fruits,  etc), dropped the last of winter stuff at storage  and ran to the management company so Dan could sign checks / about 3:30 Dan kept saying to me “Kris  check your sugar – I was good, did not argue or fight him, just did it ….sure enough it was low – 40.  So of  course I had to quickly  drink a glucose shot and I tried to overlook the bad headache.  Got home, put all the  food away and started to prepare for dinner.

Next thing I know around   6-6:30 , Dan is handing me another glucose shot, telling  me to hurry and drink.  I was so confused – I kept thinking another shot – why?  I look around and I am sitting on my deck, with my dinner in  front of me and Dan  saying How do you feel? It is nice to have you back.  My first thought was OH SHIT!!!! What happened, how did I get there, and did I make dinner?