Monthly Archives: May 2010

Woke this morning feeling terrible, my sugar was 550 and I had a slamming headache. I already knew last night was bad, because I can’t remember much. I know yesterday was busy and that I sat with Dan at an Open House and went to see a unit in our developement to list, and finally went to a clients to get contracts signed. I also remember going to dinner at the diner with two very good friends, it was nice to catch up with them. But after that I don’t remember much or what I do is not making any sense. This frustrates me so much…I hate when I loose time and have to retrace my actions. I am always afraid that I said or did something terrible. Anyway, Dan said I had a bad sugar low and was not very cooperative, I feel bad he has to put up with this and me.

I wish sometimes I could be someone else, or me with out the pain and problems…cause I really love my life with Dan, just wish it was not so limited and complicated. But I guess I should consider myself lucky to have a wonderful husband, good friends, and what left of my mind when it is working. I just remember, I use to be fun….I wish I could get that back, but anyway no sense dwelling on things that are not going to happen. I sorry, just very frustrated and mad. I am venting.

Well, the end has come to the campaign, and although Dan put forth a great campaign, and he had the support of great friends, he missed by 82 votes. He was 1st and 2nd all the way thru 10 districts, and the last 4 were not good. I was so upset and sad for him, although he didn’t show it, he was upset inside (He just put on his happy face and said, it will be better next time). I feel that he got a raw deal and that people did not play fair, I know that is politics, but still it is not right. So today was very sad, we collected all the campaign signs thru-out the town and threw them away…..Dan was very quite, he tried not to show it and kept saying “at least I did not get crushed”, he received so many calls of best wishes and sorries, that the people of Mahwah made a big mistake….That is so true, I don’t want to hear anyone complain about taxes and the bad in the town, my answer is going to be “if you don’t go vote and voice your thoughts, don’t complain”…..Anyway I am so proud of Dan, I can’t even find the perfect words, he is such an inspiration and the most passionate man I know, He is a rock and he is mine and I am proud of him.
I may be rambling on, just got over having a sugar low….a little hard to get what I am thinking and feeling into words, so please excuse me. I think I will stop now and continue my thoughts tomorrow, feeling pretty sick to my stomach and bad headache…..gonna go to bed, hopefully get a good nite sleep and things will be better tomorrow. Once again I apologize.