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The Small Things That Matter

Had a nice relaxing evening so far……made dinner for Dan and my sister Erika came over to just hang out with us (chicken with  rice and salad)    We then all watched the movie  on cable “The Hangover”  it is a great movie, Dan and I saw it before, Erika never did……it was fun,  had us laughing from the beginnning to end…..Bradley Cooper is just eye candy… yummy for the eyes…….It was a real nice evening….I had a sugar low (caught before my sister got to the house) but it was a pleasure after last night…..I accomplished  watching the whole movie without a problem and remembering what I saw is a good thing….now I hope to get thru the night into the morning….. busy day ahead.  Got all the winter clothes out of the drawers and closets ….yes, I am on a role, now to pack them away and put summer out.  Good night I hope!

Holy Crap – Major Melt Down

I woke this morning not knowing where I was or how I got to bed, the last thing I remember was going for a walk with Dan.  I had a real bad sugar low, then seizure and Dan manage to stabilize me.   So when I got home from my walk  I went to write  on my blog,  I realize that I definitely had a problem, as my last entry shows……Holy Crap – I am so embarrassed, not only do I not remember the whole evening from the walk on, my brain had a major melt down, as you can see on my last entry.  I don’t remember writing, and my typing/spelling  as well as thought process was shot…..Don’t ask me what I was trying to say.  

This is why the  new sensor they came out with  is so important……it would detect a pattern in  my sugar moving in the wrong direction up to 45 min. in advance of me having a problem and set an alarm off so I could get sugar into me and turn pump off…….now I don’t even feel it coming on ( I use to)……and if I do it is to late cause I can’t express it.  I feel so stupid and mad writing the way I did last night on here…….All I can say is I am sorry.  I should just paste  a sign on my back “I am sorry in advance”.

Well, I can not change things…..just move on and hope another episode does not take place today and I get a days break. It’s the back to back one that really do damage to my brain. Dan is even more upset then me because he feels bad when he can’t catch it in time. Now he is telling me that he is going to get that sensor one way or another in the next month or so. I reminded him that the sensor is a one time fee  and the supplies are what will just be another monthly bill we don’t need or can afford.  Well….. I have  a lot to do, weekend cleaning and chores, change over clothes from winter to summer (how I hate that job), run errands with Dan,  and try to keep a smile my on face,  when all I want to do is cry with my head pounding ( I will have that for the next few days after a seizure).  Oh well, better get started. One of our friends told Dan and I about a neighbor that killed herself the other day by sitting in the car with it running and the garage door shut. Dan felt so bad for the woman that she had no other choice but to do that…….I felt good for the woman because I know how it feels to not want to be around any longer and be a financial burden on my family.  Why should Dan loss everything  he worked so hard for in life and have suck a stress daily life? I was jealous of the woman who ended it all.


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New Page & New Pictures

I asked Dan to put a new page on my blog, Contact Kris and Dan. This page gives our mailing address and phone number. I also put about 50 new picture of my family,friends and me………Hope you like them.

Feeling of Accomplishment

I woke today feeling real crappy – which is the normal.  But I had received two wonderful comments from my followers that made were the perfect medicine.  It made me feel a sense of accomplishment and self worth.  I finally felt like I had some purpose, even if it was small, it meant so much to me…….I just want to say Thank you to  Tara and Steven…….you brought a smile to my face…..thanks again.

Healthy meals can still taste good!

Whith the warm weather this week its good to get grill going. I need to eat alot of fish in my diet so here is a GREAT  recipe for grilled Salmon.


For Salmon:
4 skinless salmon fillets (6 ounces each)
1 teaspoon olive oil
1/2 teaspoon ground coriander
Coarse salt and ground pepper
For citrus sauce:
1/2 cup fresh orange juice
1/4 cup fresh lime juice
1 teaspoons sugar
2 teaspoons Dijon mustard
2 tablespoons olive oil
Coarse salt and ground pepper


  1. Make citrus sauce: In a small skillet over high heat, boil 1/2 cup fresh orange juice and 1/4 cup fresh lime juice until reduced to 1/2 cup, 8 to 12 minutes.
  2. Remove from heat; whisk in 1 teaspoons sugar, 2 teaspoons Dijon mustard, and 2 tablespoons olive oil. Season with coarse salt and ground pepper. Set aside citrus sauce (makes about 3/4 cup).
  3. Prepare salmon: Heat grill to medium-high. Rub 4 skinless salmon fillets (6 ounces each) with 1 teaspoon olive oil. Sprinkle with 1/2 teaspoon ground coriander; season with coarse salt and ground pepper.
  4. Lightly oil grates; place salmon, skinned side up, on grill. Cover grill; cook 5 minutes. Turn fillets; cover, and cook until opaque throughout and flaky, about 4 minutes more. Serve salmon drizzled with citrus sauce. Dan and  I personally like to eat it over a fresh green salad.


Hope you enjoy it!

Of all the things I lost, It is my mind I miss the most!

Just an all around bad two days……. all of sudden I been having sugar lows left and right…….causing my body to ache as if I had a bad seizures and bad memory loss.  I have been trying to remember exactly what I did the last few days……and it seems impossible to put things into place or what exactly what I did.   Dan keeps trying to fill me in, I feel so stupid…..I am so scared.  I keep thinking  “What the hell am I going to be like when I am fifty,  if I am this bad now!”  I just  do not get it.  I eat right, do what I am suppose to do with my insulin injections…..It was nice for awhile,  I was going without any real bad lows or seizures, my memory and confidence was coming back, I felt more stable to talk around people – I knew what I was doing and if I was going low, I was able to catch it and manage it on my own; and then BAM!  I just want to crawl into a hole and die…..I am tired and don’t want to do this anymore- I want to get off the rollercoaster ride….Get off permanently!!!!! I AM SO DONE – JUST DON’T WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE .  It makes me sick to think of what my life is going to be like – or what it will be like and I can’t remember it or miss things.    It is so unfair to Dan – he does not deserve this, he is a great guy and deserves so much more……..He did not sign on for this – I am stuck with the cards I was dealt…..he could hand his cards in.  I would not blame him if he did. 

Well enough of my venting……Going to make the best of today.  On that note, I say “Of all the things I lost, it is my mind I miss the most!!”

Another Sunday goes by

Well, this weekend started off okay, yesterday was absolutely beautiful out, a definite tease for the weather – sunny and warm.  So Dan and I started I spring cleaning,,,,,we had lunch on the deck.  We then decided to take a break from cleaning and brought my coat to the furrier in Northvale –  took a nice ride – it was so nice out.  I came home made dinner and we ate outside (I love eating out there – Dan always make it look so beautiful for me – I just hope we will still have it to enjoy the way things are going).  I cleaned up and then took a ride with Dan to Home Depot to get a drill bit for making a hole in one of our big cermaic pots (cobalt blue/real pretty) for proper water drainage.  

And from that point on, well I have been spending  all of Sunday  morning to afternoon trying to remember what happened next.  I had a bad sugar low and can’t remember anything……I just feel the after affects……a slamming headache, my muscles hurt and my   belly is absolutely killing me.   My plans for continuing my spring cleaning have been altered and I just feel horrible not being able to remember.   I look at Dan and he says not to worry, I was not to much trouble…..but I know he is not telling the truth, he looks tired and worried……he has so much on his plate and I just make matters worse.  I just wish I could find a hole and stay there – this way I can not make things worse. 

 Dan keeps saying we have to go into the city for the pump and get it started……I keep saying no – what is the point we can’t afford it and I don’t want to make our financial situation worse……god knows we are struggling and at the rock bottom….next is  have nothing.

The only good thing is we have each other…..for me at least.  He would be better without me – it would be easier.  But he makes me laugh and want to be there for him, as has for me……I wish  I could make things better – even a little.  So another Sunday goes by and a new week starts,  may be someone will hear my  prayers and my dreams of winning the lottery – does not have to be much,- will be answered and I can give back. LOL

  And Dan I just want to tell you, if I have not already……..I LOVE YOU SO MUCH…..THANK YOU …. I AM SO SORRY FOR BEING A BURDEN!

Bitter Sweet

Today is a Bitter Sweet Day, I received a box in the mail today. It was a package with my Insulin pump, I was so happy – all the hard work Dan had done finally arrived, but then a feeling of fear and saddness over came me. The fear of how we were going to pay for the supplies to run it set in. (I told Dan-to forget it at the beginning – I would just take my chances everyday / we are so behind in our bills as it is – we can’t afford it…..he would not hear of it – he said the the key element the “Sensor” will have to come later because the insurance company does not pay for it = which is so stupid it/ it is the most important part – the main piece to the puzzle it will prevent or warn me if I am going to have a seizure and it is not covered and is something we can not afford……..kind of worthless to have a pump and no sensor. It broke my heart to see the look on Dan’s face when I asked him how he were going to pay for it and he said he was working on it and we had to wait for the sensor. So our happy moment was short lived, it seems like nothing is lasting – it just is never meant to be. But I thing only thing I know is definite is the love between the two of us…….the only thing I know we can count on. I wish there was something I could do make things easier and better…..Instead all I can say is “Thank you baby and I love you and I am so grateful for all that you do and try to accomplish to make my life easier and good.”

Quiet and peaceful weekend

It has been a very quiet and peaceful weekend so far. Saturday I had a one major sugar low – Dan did not catch on – I caught it myself – 27 (that was scary – no signs just a bad headache and when I checked = it was a 27). Went with Dan to office – he had floor time, so I sat with him and then went to get ingridents for making home made chicken soup…..Dan made it I helped. Soup is not a favorite food of mine – so my skills are very limited- I watched and learned (will try next time) and then we watched a movie….in between doing my usual chores. Wish the headache would go away from the sugar low…..have a busy day tomorrow – have to go with Dan to show houses in Emerson and run errands.

Well the 4 Alleves did not help – I think it made my head hurt more……my head is pounding, so bad that my hair hurts when it moves.  After we show clients the houses we are going to see about getting my nails done – very, very over due and then come home and make dinner. I think it is going to be chicken tacos and then I want to go for a walk – get started on a schedule to walk at night- now that it is lighter later……Pretty quiet, but always in good company. I just feel bad that Dan has to wait for me to have nails done – wish I could go alone….just sucks that I am such a ball and chain and he is stuck with me, I guess it is okay for him (as it is for me – he is my best girl friend….always make me laugh) providing I am in a good state, no seizures and I  remember what  went on during that time…..then       everything is good.  

I just    he truly knew how much I love him and how I appreciate all he does for me…..he  is a great husband and exceptional man.  I thank God all the time  – he is my rock, my life and reason for waking up……so if I did not say it yet, and you read this  “Dan I love you and thank you for always being there  for you…..I just wish I could do the same for you.”

Well going to clean up after dinner -may take a  quick walk , (I may  wimp out tonight – it is cold out there) make some calls to my sisters and parents,   and then just relax and watch TV –    watch Meatloaf have a meltdown on the Apprentice (sad   but true no life) , get ready for tomorrows events.   Good night!