June 2 A Beautiful Sunny Morning

I woke this to a beautiful sunny morning…….starting another week. As usual I made Dan his breakfast, bacon and eggs; me my 1/2 a grapefruit and a yogurt. He asked me if I was excited about writing on my blog and the response I have gotten since I started writing again? my response was yes…..but I just wish I could do more. ( Something I need to figure out within myself……and be happy with) Then he asked me what I look forward to (since he was not please with my answer – lack of ethusaim) …..well, this just opened up a can of worms……that he just does not get or ever will. I know it seems ungrateful or selfish or a Debbie downer….but I am not doing what I want…..and not by choice…..It sucks having no independence and doing/going where you want and when. Yes, I understand he doesn’t like to go to work all the time…..but he is doing something he enjoys, he loves and is so good at, that is important. He can come and go as he chooses (except for me the ball and chain)….but he can………………I can not, so sometimes not being happy is what I have to look forward to……which truly sucks. I deal with it, I do not complain to anyone……So all I ask is let me have the right to be mad, and understand there is nothing anyone can do to change it. As long as I do not affect him or anyone else that should be good…….I am not bothering anyone. I am polite, kind and go about my thing……not asking for pity……just going about my business. And yes I look forward to things…….I am looking for our long weekend together and I am grateful for all Dan does for me………It is just not always easy jumping for joy…and being told what to do, go and how to feel……I try to make the best of the situation…..shit there are people that have it good and always bitching. So on that note…….I will just say…..I AM JUST PEACHY!!!!!!
Yes this just started my day off on a positive note.

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