Miserable Monday

Well, yes it is a miserable start to the week………I woke with the worse heache and stomach ache that I just want to cry. My hair actually hurts , it hurts to breath and speak. When I woke this morning, my hair looked like ringlets of curls, and wearing clothes that do not remember putting them on. I knew this was not a good thing…..and I was going to hear / and feel bad about what I did.
Dan told me the events that took place from 5:00 last nite on…….I had a very bad sugar low……I had problems breathing, speaking and drinking….I was sweating/soaking wet…..this went on from 5:00 til way after 12:00………yeap!
Need less to say……Dan was not happy with me or the whole situation……All I could say was I was sorry…….which I know Dan is tired of hearing……I know he hates me……and that I am a big burden….I do not mean to be…..I hate being me……..It sucks and wish things were different and I could just be normal….I hate me most of all.
I cleaned up the mess I made from the nite before…….and just proceeded to clean the wood floors and Kitchen floors from the Snapple that I spilled in my attempts to drink it; I got a short workout in……a shitty one…at least it was something …….I got dressed to go with Dan to office. I am here now and do not feel any better…..I wish I could crawl under a rock and die…….I really wish I was dead…..and I would not have to do this anymore…..It would be so much easier.
After leaving the office tonite, We have to go food shopping and then I have to make dinner and the meals for tomorrow…….I hope I can make it to end of the day,,,,,,really feeling so sick.