I woke today, it was beautiful and sunny, my head hurt but not as bad as it has been. I got a decent nights sleep, no lows or problems, just got up 3-4 times which is actually good for me. But I just feel so horrible, I ache and I am just not myself.
Sorry I have not written, just don’t have anything positive to say. I find that when I feel this way and you don’t have anything good to say, I truly believe it is best not to say anything. Nobody wants to hear the same shit……..know one really cares, we all have our problems, so I have decided to suck it up and deal with it….(it is just easier to deal with the shit when you have a light at the end of the tunnel or a chance things will get better), and I know that it is not going to happen – not in my case and I know that. But it does not hurt to want and wish for better. Anyway, just looking forward for the day to end, go to bed and go to sleep…….at least then I can dream of good things, like feeling better and not having this constant feeling of being a burden and abnormal.
Hopefully, I will wake up tomorrow in a better mood and have something positive to say……..god knows I am tired of hearing myself – I can only imagine how everyone feels listening to me……I really am not a Debbie Downer (I am normally positive – just in a bad rut), and I truely apologize. Good night