I woke this morning and I have had this haunting feeling of fear and depression (not to mention my normal aches and pains). I guess the weather is not helping, it is dreary and the thunder is roaring loud , and it is pouring outside cats and dogs. I am looking out the window, listening to Dan talk to clients, trying to solve problems with their real estate deals, and them complaining about situations in their lives, little things. I sit here and think, what if they were in our situation. I mean we have people complaining to us that something like their dog peaed on the floor, or they have to hang a picture, etc……..the world is coming to end for them, SHIT – LISTEN TO YOURSELVES, if that is a problem, I will take it in a heartbeat.
What would they do if they were in our shape……having no savings or money to pay bills, due to the constant medical issues – which will never end, lack of business because real estate is slow, worried about loosing our house, lack of health insurance for Dan, etc….I could go on, but we keep going and we never let on. God I just want jump into on-coming traffic if I could get the nerve too. I know we all have problems, and they are big to us, but believe me they are really not that bad……there is others that have it worse……be thankful for what you have and especially if you have your health. That is the key, without it, life really does suck, the pain, worries and side-effects are always haunting and diablilitating. Trust me, I know. I guess I am just venting, I am frustrated and tired of struggling and seeing my rock, beating himself up trying. We just never get a break – even a little one. I thought putting this into words would make me feel a little better emotionally – well it didn’t…….I think I have depressed myself even more. Well that really sucked, this writting is suppose to help me – Good job Kris.