I am sure glad the Easter Bunny did not come to my house last night…. He would have been in for a big surprise. Apparently I had a very bad sugar low and seizure. I would not drink the glucose shots for Dan and I was falling all over the place. This morning I woke with a terrible head and stomach ache and my legs are so sore to stand up. Dan said I kept saying my legs were missing during the seizure……..All I know is, god they hurt, and I am glad I do not have to let on to anyone in the family how bad I feel…….I know Dan knows because he was there, but how I really feel after this low, worse than I have ever felt. So when he said lets go for a walk, I wanted to just die, but I did not want to mess up his day, (god only knows I did the nite before), so I put my sneakers on and went for an 1.5 hour walk with him. I made it – even though it was killing me inside, I would not let him know…..and I am glad, I at least overcame and accomplished something.
It is very quite here, Dan is watching basketball, and I am going to make dinner – a salad. That was what he wanted. Dan is truly a great guy, I just wish he did not have to suffer thru this with me. I made my calls to my family, to wish everyone a good day……I miss them, but I just am not into talking with people and pretending that everything is great when it is really, really, bad. And no relief insight.
After dinner, I plan on just sitting in front of the TV after I work out…..and just veg. I need to get a good night sleep without any problems, I have a big day tomorrow – Dan and I have to pick up his parents in Toms River, drive them to Wayne – their friends funeral, and then drive them back to Toms River and then finally come home. God help me not have any problems.