Things just seem to be getting worse, now Dan has no insurance…..he gave it up – so we could pay for the medical supplies. It is getting to the point that trying to have a positive attitude is getting harder and harder. I look into Dans eyes and all I see is stress and worry, I am so afraid that he is just going to explode. Well the day is crappy weather wise, and as for me and how I feel, don’t bother , I am ready for the day to be done and it just started. Just so worried what we are going to do.
I am sitting here, and all I want to do is cry……I am so scared and worried about everything, but most of all Dan. He is trying so hard to keep things together, but I think we are at the end. It kills me to see the saddness in his eyes. I think of all we have been through together, probably more bad things in the last 10 years together, then most experience in a life time, but there is only so much one can take. And I think we are at our end…….there is nothing left. Dan I am so sorry for all this.
I told Dan not to read my blog anymore, because I do not want to upset him…….so hopefully he listens to me for once, I do not want him to feel any worse than he already does. But just in case he does not listen to my request……………DAN, I AM SO SORRY FOR BEING A BURDEN TO YOU, I WISH MORE THAN ANYTHING I WAS NORMAL AND NOT SO SICK, AND COULD MAKE THINGS EASIER……..I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND TRULY THANKFULL YOU ARE MY HUSBAND.