Monthly Archives: November 2014

To sum it up this weekend was very nice and very busy…….Dan and I were continuously running and on the go. We need another couple of days to just recover from Saturday and Sunday.

On Saturday, Dan and I got up early and straightened up the house……It was a big day for Dan. Jenny was bringing her boyfriend, down to meet Dan and I for the first time. Dan was all excited (also nervous, eventhough he will never admit it). They got to our house around 1:00 pm and we sat around and talked for about an hour before going to dinner. He was extremely nice guy, very polite, smart, a great personality, cute and very level headed. Dan and I both liked him, we were so pleased…..and most of all…..Jenny looked happy…..and that is all that matters (he treats her very nice) ,they make adorable couple. I am truly happy for the both of them. We had a great early dinner and excellent conversation and lots of laughs. We took them to Home Depot, helped pick tiling for his kitchen floor and pick out his (their) first Christmas tree and decorations. Dan was just busting inside with happiness….just having this experience with Jenny and her choices. It made me so happy to see Dan smile and being happy,,,,,,,it has been rough for him lately with the loss of his parents.
After they left, Dan and I had to help Steve from Nagoya……He had a problem with his Truck and needed our help. Dan made all the calls needed and got him set up to get the truck fixed. Then my sister Erika, came up by me for dinner….she wanted Sushi……and of course we went Steve’s. We had a great time….it was good to see her and just hang out……we have not been able to see much of each other, especially all that has been going on my life, and Dan’s health….and on her end the girls soccer schedules and her increased work load.

Sunday was another busy day……actually a day of shopping. Dan took me shopping to get some outfits for the holiday parties we have in the upcoming weeks……A six hour shopping spree. I got some nice outfits and cannot wait to wear them. It was also great test/therapy for him…..He went the whole time without having any panic attacks, which made him feel so happy. I am so glad he is feeling better……It is nice to have the old Dan back…… I must say I am so tired after the events of this weekend….I hope for a good nights sleep……time will tell.

Woke this morning and it was quite chilly…….the warmth of the sun on my face felt good, as we drove into the office. That was the only thing that felt good. I am a little shaky this morning, since I had a low in the middle of the night, caught it this time, because when I had woke to use the bathroom….My PJ’s and hair was soaking wet with sweat and my heart was beating out of my chest, my coordination was so out of control, it was a struggle to test my sugar and open a bottle of glucose……after several attempts I got the bottle opened, drank it, and managed to get to bed without Dan knowing I had a problem or even waking him….Thank God!!!!

Today, is going to be a me day. I am going to get my hair cut……it has gotten so long and unmanageable……except for today. Of course it comes out absolutely perfect….yeap, the day I am going to get it cut…..( I am not giving into this trick…I am keeping my appointment – I need something to make me feel good), that is step #1. Tonite, after dinner I will do step #2. to make me beautiful (At least try too) and make me feel better – I am going to color my hair. Yes I feel pretty, oh so pretty…NOT! Just feel like crap….going to bed….can’t take it anymore.., (my ribs are still killing me – which is not helping)..I need to get a good nights sleep…..Please let me have that….please, please!!!!!!!.

Wow, I can not believe it has been one year today that Dan’s Dad has passed. I feel so bad for Dan…..I know he is hurting inside, he loved his dad so much and misses him so much. He is trying to hide his pain, but I can see right thru him, it is only normal….I know I would/and will be devasted if I lost my dad. The good thing is Dan has a lot to do today at the office with the new agents, which is a good ……It will be a distraction for him……at least a little. I also feel sad inside, I loved Dan’s dad, he always teased me and made me laugh…….I do truly miss him.

On today’s agenda, we have to go get toys for the next charity drive…..TOYS FOR TOTS……..Dan and I started off the drive for our office each year with a truck load of toys. I love doing this drive it makes me so good inside. First truck load of toys (A Hummer packed to the max) bought and delivered to office. I just have to vent, I am dying inside between my ribs and my stomach…..do not know which hurts more, I just want to cry. I keep repeating to myself, “Suck it up buttercup!!!!!”
It’s late, we are leaving the office…..not feeling any better, apparently Had a sugar low on the way home….just do not get it, of course Dan was very upset. I made dinner and cleaned up. After I got done, Dan and I went to the Shop Rite to get beverages to stock the beverage center in the office and to get our perscriptions filled.
Hopefully, I get a good nights sleep, have to get up very early to take Dan to get test done at hospital. Keeping my fingers crossed to getting a good nights sleep….can only hope.

I am going to make it short and sweet…….the last two days I have been feeling really horrible and totally scattered……and truthfully, I just do not feeling like repeating myself over and over……so on that note……I am alive and getting by, I am not in the mood to be social…..Sorry maybe tomorrow will be better.

This weekend was crazy and yet very productive. Dan and I got a lot of things done.
Saturday, we slept a little later than usual, I did not sleep well the night before….I woke up in the middle of the night all sweaty and my heart was poundling ( symptom a little different for a low of 40), caught it before it got worse, drank a bottle of glucose and went back to bed……just grateful I did not wake Dan, as I stumbled into the other room…..that would have made more stress on him. So my Saturday started feeling the norm / like crap….but I was determined to get things done, a girl with a mission. I cleaned the house and did 2 loads of laundry. We went to get my fur coat…..Dan and I went to storage and got the Christmas tree and the decorations. We put up the tree, decorated the outside entry with the Christmas tree lights………we were on a roll…….then we went to Pier 1 to look for a new vase to replace the one I shattered. At Pier 1 , we found some interesting red Bamboo sticks to fill the awesome Vase Dan and I found. We found this Huge 5 ft vase which we made some alterations to……Dan made it look great….grey slate color and made it look distressed. I love it better than the original one we had. We are a great team together when it comes to taste and decorating…..very modern and comtemporary. It was a long day of running around……and we did everything we set out to do, except get the kissing balls for the office…….I told Dan they were not out yet…..But what do I know.

Sunday- woke up early…..just could not sleep the whole night…..my ribs are just killing me from my previous fall….just another pain….but who is complaining. I did my usual Sunday routine, changed sheets, put the laundry away…..get a head start on making some meals…..the usual. Dan wanted look for the kissing balls…..he was determined to find them…..he went as far as going into New York……but of course he doesn’t listen to me…….No Kissing Balls out anywhere. Oh Well!!!!!! I know we did other stuff, but I do not recall what exactly we did…….All I know is that I did have a sugar low, which just made me feel like shit for the rest of the day. Before I knew it , it was time for dinner……..so I made dinner for us, cleaned up and parked my butt on the couch, where I veggied till it was time for bed.

I woke this morning feeling like death and truthfully just wanted to die. My head was killing me so bad I just wanted to cry, my left wrist and hand was all swollen, stiff (could barely bend my fingers or move my wrist), it hurt to breath or move…..my ribs and hip were killing me (like someone ran me over and crushed my bones) and at the same time, I have this continuous stabbing pain in my belly. I do not remember going to bed, so I knew this was a bad thing…..and as I slowly tried to get out of the bed and walked into the living room……I knew a lot of bad happened last night. The place was a disaster….my favorite vase (150lbs and was a 5 foot in height) was in a million pieces…..I was so upset.

I just want to apologize in advance if entry is scattered and the spelling is poor……but my brain seems to be suffering from last night, and I am having a difficult time concentrating and putting my thoughts into words.

Well, moving extremely slow and gingerly……..I did manage get into the office……Dan came back for me later in the morning….he had an appointment with a new agent. I am sitting in the office, and I can tell you I am really hurting….I am trying to act like nothing is wrong…….but it is real hard. All I can say is I cannot wait for the day to be over…….my sugar is all over, but mostly very low….I just cannot get it up and stay there…..I am really starting to hate Snapple (mango) it is not working like it usually does…..4 bottles already today.

Dan, dropped me home which worry’s him, while he went to a home inspection ….he took the new agent to show her what an inspection entails . So I got a chance to get head a head start on dinner, I am making salmon and spaghetti squash. After dinner we will have to go for Snapple since we have none left, in the process of drinking my 5th bottle. Dan came home, we ate……dinner was very tasty if I do say so myself,…..I made lunch for the next day, cleaned up after dinner, while Dan relaxed on the couch. When I was done, I walked into the living room to find Dan completely sound a sleep…..I woke him to go to the store, but he was really tired and out of it, so I let him sleep. But of course,….an hour later I have a sugar low……I have no Snapple left in house and I hate the pure glucose….Dan gets so much anxiety over this,so I drank 3 bottles of glucose….which helped a little…still did not go up much (I guess I am not digesting anything). I decided just to go to bed, besides I was feeling so sore and in pain…..tomorrow is another day!

Yes, it is Tuesday already…….the nights go by so face and the days take forever to end. I woke this morning feeling like total crap…….I did not sleep well at all…….as a result, although I am trying to keep a positive outlook on the day…….it has not started off well. Went to the office with Dan after the repair man came to fix the oven at 8:00am.
It was busy at the office, Dan had agents in and out of his office all day. I am so proud of him, he is extremely good at what he does, and he loves his job……it truly shows. In between his meetings, we ran to the Hillsdale office to drop off checks and pick some up. I was just sick in pain…..but I kept smiling and tried to hide how I was feeling and was just waiting for the day to end. At 5:30 we had gotten a call from an old customer who wanted to see a condo and put an offer on it. So we met with them, showed the unit, wrote the offer and negotiated it….they got the place and they were very happy. Prior to the appointment I had a bad sugar low of 35, so I had to down a Snapple so I was able to hold it together for the appointment……it was 7:30 when we got done, so we had to get something to eat right away……and then go back to office to get the contracts to the attorney’s asap……since they wanted to close in less than 2 weeks….all cash offer. So Dan and I work on getting that all done for the clients. It was a long day, and apparently it was not going to end on a good note. When I got home, I proceeded to make the meals for the next day and everything went bad……according to Dan……because I do not remember a thing. I must have had another bad sugar low…….must have had problems standing and was totally out of it, while Dan fell asleep in the other room…….because he was awoken by a crashing sound. Of course he ran to see what happened and in a panic……..I had fallen and knocked down a large 150 lb 5 foot tall vase with 7 foot high sticks in it, scratching the walls and the new hardwood floors, there were pieces of the vase all over, he said I was standing there unaware of what I did,……I then tried to walk and fell hitting my head and ribs on the corner of the granite counter, and then fell again hitting my head on the floor trying to stand up. Let’s just say Dan was so upset trying to get me to just lay down so he could help me……he managed to help me gain back some consciousness (of course I was resistant – totally out of it….which made it very hard for him), he got me to the bedroom and put me to bed and then slept holding on to me all night so I didn’t get up without him. Not good at all…….I felt so bad for Dan…….I HATE WHEN THIS HAPPENS……I GET SO PISSED OFF !!!!!!. The next morning I saw all the damage done and had a swollen hand and ribs plus a bump on my head. Dan had it all cleaned up in a half hour and acted like nothing ever happened. I know that I am the cause of Dan’s anxiety that is really starting to suffer more and more from. Since my health has started to get worse in last few months and he had some other major events in his life he is having panic attacks and severe anxiety…..yet if you saw him with the agents or clients you would think he was his usual funny and charming self!

Happy Halloween everyone. Today should be an interesting day…….Dan and I are dressing to go to the office. Dan is going to be a pimp…..Vanilla Love and I am going to be is Ho, Bubbalious. Yes, Dan has the dreds, the hat with feather, purple pants, cheeta Jacket , 4 inch gold shoes, lots of bling and a grill. I have the long hair, short red fur skirt, fish net stockings, leather Biker jacket, and the ten inch dancer shoes (slut shoes with money at bass of heel – my legs are going to have the work out of a life time). We really looked good. Ellie our admin was a Hot Dog, not all the way – just with mustard. She was an adorable hot dog. I must say we have a great office…….so many of the agents got dressed, we had a Kangaroo, Hippie, Thing Three, Stevie Nicks, Minnie Mouse, Witch, and a guess appearance by Jack- Frankenstein and Vivienne- a Poodle..it was just so much fun. I must say by the end of the day…..besides my feet killing me from the dancer shoes…..my face was literally killing me from laughing so much…..so many times I thought I was going to pee in my pants. It was truly a great day of fun and laughs…..Everyone had a blast. Looking forward to next year!!!!!!!

Again another bad night, I got a terrible nights sleep and had a bad sugar low (34)…woke in bad sweat and curly hair….so I drank some glucose….and took my slamming bad headache back to bed, with the hope when I woke I would feel better……..I was proud of myself….I caught this one….I didn’t even tell Dan…..was in deep sleep.