Woke up to another beautiful day……..it is sunny and warm out, just beautiful out…..another positive start to the day. I seem to be having an issue with my sugars today…….my sugar has been very high nothing less than 492 (that is with 3 shots of Insulin)…..My head is about to explode and my heart hurts…It is pounding out of my chess…I am definitely in stroke zone. All I can say…..please someone shoot me, It hurts to think right now and want to jump out my skin. It is scary! I hope it comes down before Pilates tonite…….I am becoming a little concerned.
Dan, took a half an hour to go pickup flower planters for the back entrance of offices so I took the ride…..to beautiful outside to be indoors…..the sun felt great……unfortunately it did not help me feel any better….sugar is still very high…..I cannot catch a break.
Then after Pilates , Dan and I have to stick around the office
till after 7:00 to meet a pass client…..on renting her units in Ridgewood. I think Dan is going to bring in dinner…..greek salad with grilled chicken. I am determined to loose my desired weight….10lbs …..I must loose. I already sewed my mouth shut.
Feeling worse after Pilates….my sugar dropped down to 32…..extremely low after being close to 600 all day. Just feel so shitty….my thoughts are scattered, I am shakey….and freezing. I have not eaten yet….it is so late for me to being eating, just want Dan to be done with his appointment….Then we are going to Nagoya for sushi…….hopefully the rice will bring my sugar up along with 2 bottles of sugar I downed……my stomach feels terrible.
I cannot wait for to get home……so I can make the meals for tomorrow, clean up and go to bed. I do not think I will even stay up to see the results to American Idol……I JUST WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!