This weekend was very busy…..
Saturday, I did the usual errands and chores……cleaned the house, changed the bedding, did laundry and food shopped. I prepared dinner and went to the movies with Dan to see PARKER with Jennifer Lopez…..it was actually very good, and Dan was in his glories…He just loves Jennifer. We saw an early movie, which was good, so I was able to come home and make the meals for Sunday, going to his parents – which I am not looking forward to but, he has not seen them in 2-3 weeks, and he is looking forward to it.
Sunday, we got up early and I made a nice breakfast, cleaned up, and got ready for the journey to South Jersey, I felt sick to my stomach…..more than usual….probably just nerves and anxiety (seems to be the case everytime I go to see them, and I know Dan is also uneasy – but he will never admit it.) The ride was not bad….at least there was no traffic. And then the fun began……we had to eat lunch right away…..everything is a rush,,,,,,the yelling started (Dan’s mother yelling at his father and her arguing with Dan; it is just so unpleasant to be there……and I sit in the corner not saying a word – because they can’t hear me so you have to scream or I am being critized for something by his mother, which then makes everything tense,,,,,,especially between Dan and I, because he is always nervous there will be a blow out between me and his mom. So I try not to say anything ….to keep peace and let Dan do all (the list of things his mom has for him or just let him devote the day to them)…..But then Dan gets mad at me, because I am not being social – I never win,,,,,,This is all the time and why I hate going there……I wish it was not the case, but it is and it sucks. Their time is limited….Life is too short to have all this negativity and horrible memories and feelings.
I must say Dan is a wonderful son…..he has the patience of a saint and puts up with so much crap…..his mother just argues, yells, or belittles him…..it just makes me so sad and upset, she is never satisfied or thankful…….I know she is old, but his father is 3 years older and is just such a pleasure. I find it amazing that Dan is the man he is…….so nice and loving, despite being treated so terrible like this by his mother his whole life……it just kills me and makes me sick to my stomach, ( I know if he reads this – he will be very upset with me, but I have to vent……I cannot keep it inside like he does………..It hurts me deep inside to see such a good and loving man, be constantly mistreated all the time. I hate it!!!! Needless to say, it will take me until his dad’s bithday to recover……he will be 90 on February 19th…..he wants to go to AC for a couple hours…..Dan would move the Moon for his Dad…..so that will be the next time we will be going down there. I have time to prepare.
Today, Monday is a big day for Dan. He is signing a big agent from Coldwell Banker……..I can tell he is anxious. But I keep telling him he is good/great at what he does…..”You will do find and I am so proud of you…….I am your biggest fan and love you.” I know I will get in trouble for saying this too……”you are being to sappy,etc……but I am entitled to my opinion and it is my blog…….so if I am offensive, “I am sorry.”
I just want to go home…….not feeling so good. I feel like the weather, horrible…..just feeling very depressed too.