Category Archives: My Health

Happy Hump Day

Another cloudy day……does not look like the sun is going to break through. I am hoping for a good day……positive thinking…..despite having the same bad headache and pains in my stomach. Worked out and did my normal morning routine…… Dan put pump back on my stomach, which really hurt today……got ready and went to office with Dan before 8:30. It is going to be a long day. I have decided to master the program DocuSign……at least attempt to (every time I get one part down….there is an upgrade and change to the program. But I am determined). Yes I am broken and technically handicapped…….just shoot me now!!!!!!

I dread tomorrow…..Have to go into the City for more test on why my organs are starting to have issues and have a monitor inserted in my stomach so they can monitor my sugar levels. I hate going… is the same thing all the time….”There is not much we can do for you… is not going to get better…..we just need to keep watch.” This always makes me feel better…..NOT!!!!!!! I am trying not to think about it now……..Keep saying to myself POSITIVE THOUGHTS……tomorrow is another day….live for now. I can only try and that is what I am doing.

Okay, almost time to go home and still feeling like crap. I must say, even though I have had nothing but positive thoughts……I have not been successful with DocuSign……I am beyond frustrated…..thank god I am leaving soon, because I am about to put my foot thru the screen of my computer……I know I am technically handicapped but REALLY! I am about to pull my hair out……you know what, enough is enough, tomorrow is another day….screw it.


So thankful it is Friday…….It has been a week of hell. I could use a couple of drinks and the day has just started. This morning I woke up with a bad headache, whereupon I checked my sugar and it was 183 (which was good). I did my normal routine – made Dan breakfast, cleaned up, worked out, got ready to go to the office- checked my sugar again it was 325 (not good – as a result I had a really, really bad headache and pains in my chess)….so I laid down for about 10 minutes. When I got up to check it again it was 29 – it dropped 296 points in 10 minutes- I was shakey and totally out of it… scared me……I could barely open the bottle of mango Snapple and glucose….my hands were shaking as a brought the bottle to my lips to take a sip. Total new for me….cause usually I do not know when I am having a low…….the positive thing is, I caught the low before I had seizure…..thank god. As a result of this mornings events…..I am feeling miserable and scattered, so I am sorry if I am not making sense……my thoughts are also scattered.

Monday Blues!

Just a gray and dreary day. It seems like the sun has been on vacation. I woke this morning with the same headache that I had since Friday……it seems to be getting worse as the day goes on… the point it is making my stomach sick and I am having a hard time staying focused…….I just feel so scattered.

Have to go to my neighbor’s wake……not looking forward to going……I am so sad to think she is gone,,,,,I am going to miss seeing her smiling face. She was a tough woman, such an inspiration for me……she was always on the go, no matter how sick she was or what ever life dealt her. Just an amazing lady, who I will definitely miss.

I definitely have the Monday blues……I feel very sad and depressed today….I don’t know why and cannot shake it. I did not get to exercise this morning….maybe that is it. I find that when I start the day off with my exercises…..I am in a much better mood…..I feel like have accomplished something.

I trying to think what I am going to make for dinner……Dan has a planning board meeting….so it has to be quick and easy. It is going to be a long meeting, as per Dan…….so I will have plenty of time to do my exercise and attempt to do some things around the house, to fill my time.

I spoke to my mom, as I usually do…..(I call her everyday), I wish they did not live so far away…..I miss them. Just looked out the window…..Surprise, Surprise….the sun is out…..Yes,…..the day can get better….Now if I could get rid of the headache, the day would be so much better…..can only hope.

I forgot to mentioned how this weekend went……….Dinner Saturday evening was very nice……great conversation, great couple and good food…..I had a really nice time. Sunday brunch with Jenny in Katonah was fun……looked in some shops and hung out sweet shop and talked afterwards……all together a nice time!!!!!!


I cannot believe it is Friday….where did the week go. Busy day, alot to do and try to get done. I feel some acoomplishment….I worked out (inceased the amount of sit-ups to 375), did 20 minutes on the glider, made breakfast, cleaned up, vaccumed and straighten up the whole house……all by 8:30 this morning ……..I am on a roll, but already exhausted. Picked up a cake to bring to office for Danny K., it is his Birthday!!!!!! Happy Birthday Danny!, he is such a nice man…..he is like me and has to watch his sugar and loves chocolate……..he is my office buddy,he always make me laugh.

Trying to visit my sister Kathleen in the hospital…….waiting for Dan to get free with the office issues and meetings so we can go after work…….and get back in time for our dinner reservations at Varka in Ramsey…….( I hate depending on Dan to drive me places……I miss being able to drive and go places on my own…..Dan is really good about taking me where I want, but he has a job and responsibilites and it is not easy. I hate it and always feel like a tremendous burden….it truly sucks, I miss my independence). Made dinner plans for next Saturday
I am looking forward to dinner at Varka’s with David and Maria………Grilled Octupus!!!! OMG it is so good,,,,,,,,cannot wait….my mouth is already watering. After dinner, I am going to try to squeeze in food shopping……prepare meals for tomorrow, and exercise off dinner. I want to do another 150 and I will have done a total of 500. Now I just hope I can keep increasing the amount and I will see the results….I want to be lean and mean…..with a kick ass bod for the summer… excuses I am determined.

Thursday Already

Bringing You Up To Date

I am going to try to bring you up to date in my life, as briefly as possible. My last true entry was on June 13, 2012 where I spoke about changes that were taking place in my life (Dan and I), that we were going to consider.

Well back in July, Dan left RE/MAX Legend in Mahwah and moved to Prominent Properties Sotheby’s International Reality in Saddle River – where Dan is the Broker/Manager…….finally making a change after years of being pursued. Although, I miss my friends at RE/MAX……the change has introduced me to a new group of wonderful people. They have made Dan and I feel so welcome and made the move so smoothe and comfortable. Ellie, especially…..she has been a doll. She is so helpful and is great with both Dan and I. Everybody is just so nice……lots of different personalities, but all warm and loving people. Dan loves it there, and is looking forward to moving the office down the road…….(which is a process……painting, setting floor plans, running electrical lines for computers, furnishing, etc……should be fun…..lots of work and stress to come).

During this move over to a new Company, we (Dan) helped in the relection of Bill Laforte – Mayor of Mahwah, relection of another of 4 years as Mayor. It was fun, and alot of time and hard work; but the rewards are priceless…..we have made friends with people that are now a big part of our lives……very dear and special friends.

Our dearest friend Aurora oldest daughter Melanie got engaged, married and expecting her first – anytime now….we are patiently awaiting the arrival of Vance Ruanne……..Dan and I felt so honored to share in all the family festivities this past year…….It is nice to see the happiness Aurora is feeling…..she was looking forward to this for along time.

Dan and I were able to go away this year to St. Maarten for 10 days…….we had the best vacation. We absolutely just relaxed and enjoyed ourselves……a much deserved vacation. We hung out with our good friend Nina, and made new friends…..everything was just perfect……Health + except for one very costly (sugar low) they were pretty good……I think – we should live there all the time….LOL!!!
Beautiful weather, sun and no stress……..that is were I want to retire,,,,,,,,just paradise……Love it there!!!!

Let’s see….also (this was hard for Dan and I),this Christmas was lonely. For the first time we did not have our girls for Christmas. Lauren moved to Louisanna with her boyfriend to seek a career in Healthcare Management……..and Jenny, went them to help…….It was sad….I really felt bad for Dan…..although he did not say it, he was lost without them……..But I tried to make light of it and said……just think we have a new place to visit……..I am looking forward to visiting… will be really fun.

I am going to have to stop here for now,,,,,,,,I have a terrible stomach/headache……not feeling so good…….Like anything ever changes for me…….but, as usual, I am trying to keep positive. I just look at my calendar for the week……..busy couple days ahead…….Dan gets re appionted to the planning board/ along with the Mayor being sworn in…….meetings and visiting my sister in the Hospital. Hopefully the surgery will be successful and she will no longer be in terrible pain………Just waiting to hear the results.

I Am Back And Making A New Year’s Resolution

Yes I am back!!!!!!
I will be writing again, I promise. I will try to fill you in and you bring you up to date on what has happened in the past few months (alot has happened), and there has been alot of changes in my life, except for my health, which is a constant battle.
Other resolutions I am determined to keep and make happen:
Lost weight and get into shape….I want a kick ass body for pool season this summer…..this is absolute must.
Follow thru with some ideas I have…….sewing and making some clothes, etc…….
Making myself happy….doing things that make me feel good and have self worth
And last not but no least…..most important…..enjoying my life with my loving husband, family, and friends…..I am not going to let my health and pain stand in the way of me feeling happy.

so on that note…..I want to say good-bye to 2012…..and say thank you to my husband/soulmate for getting me thru 2012. I am looking forward to our journey in 2013 ……You are the best!!!! I love you.

And to all my friends and family……a Happy and Healthy 2013.

Love always

I’m Back!

Hi All!…Thanks for all the emails and messages asking about me and why I haven’t been writting. I needed some time off to try and get my health a little more stable. Thats kind of funny, my health and the word stable in the same sentence!….It’s like having Charlie Sheens name and role model in the same sentence,lol. Well I’m going to start writting again.

Just Not Feeling Well

Not much else to say.

Still Adjusting To Get It Right

Well, I knew it was not going to be easy, and it never will – but trying to get the correct dosages, timing, is so frustrating and aggreviating – up. down. up, down…..stable – not stable.  It is just frustrating and if I pull the tube in my stomach one more time – I just don’t have the patience the last few days – I know I have to give myself time to adjust…..I want it to be done already, I do not want to wait any more……But I know I am talking upon deaf ears.  So much for my positive attitude.  
Well,  there are two things that made me smile……going to see my nephew in the play Sousical, he was great in it, he was one of the monkies and did a fabulous job ( he was so excited that Dan and I came to see him) – also got to catch up with Karen (Dan’s sister) and Peter……it is hard to see them as much as Dan and I would like but they are in Ct., and  are always running around like us.  The second thing that brought a big smile to my face today was a flower arrangement from   Lauren and Jenny for Mother’s Day – I was so surprised  when I got the big box!- they were pretty purple and pink tulips in a very contemporary purple glass vase…….very nice Dan is so proud of them and so am I.   And also our  verygood friend Ronnie stopped by to see us ,  it was great to see him and talk.  I knew   Dan felt happy to see him, it has been awhile……Dan and I have not done much socializing, between me being sick, him sick, bills, series of things not going right…..just not the happiest people  and we just  stick to ourselves and try to get by.  I made a nice dinner for Dan and I, we had blow fish, it was the first time I made it and If I must say  so – It was really, really good. 

 Looking forward to sleeping late tomorrow. work out, go for  long walk with Dan (if weather permits), get my nails done (maybe) a     quiet day with my favorite man.     Gotta go work out now……the pool season  is =in 3 weeks. I have ALOT TO DO ON MY END.